It's not by any means dramatic but here is my story..
I've always been in church. My parents took me as a baby, and I kept going as a child but I never really understood the point of it when I was younger. I didn't know why I had to go sit & be quiet in church everyweek or why people kept bringing up Jesus. I really just didn't want to go. My parents worked every other weekend & on the weekends they worked my grandparents would stay with me. I always thought I could get away with trying to sleep in on Sunday mornings but I always ended up going to church.
As I got older & into middle school, I wasn't exactly that way anymore, but I was still pretty young & didn't really understand a lot of things a bout Jesus. I believed he was real but I didn't really have second thoughts a bout it. There was a time where I really thought I was going to go up to the pastor to tell him that I wanted to be baptised but I never did. When my sister decided to get bapisted I thought she was really young because she was only seven or so but people would shake my hand infront of church & say " don't you remember when that was you?" After that I began to feel like I really couldn't go up there because everyone at church already thought I was a christian so, what was the point ?
In middle school I was never "bad" I guess you could say. I never really got into trouble at school. People would consider me to be a good person but I knew in my heart that I wasn't right before Jesus. I wanted people to like me, & I tried to be that someone. I worried a lot about what people thought about me.
For awhile I even thought that I needed to start reading my bible more, & clean up my life before I would go to Christ but Christ saved me & he took me as I was. I could never be right with Jesus on my own, thats why he saved me. Jesus is the only one worthy enough to do that.
I was baptisted when I was fourteen, I started seeing that I really needed Jesus in my life & that I didn't want to go to hell when I died. I don't really want to go into a lot of detail about everything but it wasn't until last year or so that I realized there are a lot of things that I did that didn't really line up with what I should be doing. Sure, I looked all nice on the outside but in reality I was just another luke warm christian walking around in the church. I thought I knew Jesus but I was still doing things my way. I just wanted boyfriends so, I dated non christians who really didn't take my relationship with God anywhere. They pulled me farther from God. It wasn't like I just dated anyone but I should have waited for someone worthy enough to date & who God wanted instead of dating whoever I thought was good enough. I listened to Lil wayne rap about weed, sex, & money. I missed out on plenty of opportunities to tell people about Christ that I should have taken. I thought of myself ALOT more than I ever thought of anyone else. I became numb to Jesus for a while. I sat in church & thought this was good stuff but I became one of those Sunday christians. & you might be thinking well I wouldn't of thought that or thats not that bad or whatever, but it was sin. Sin that separates me from God, sin that hurts God, sin that hurt me & plenty of other people. I look back & think wow what were people thinking when I told them I did that because I know they weren't thinking "she's on fire for Jesus."
BUT now.. here I am completely innocent in God's eyes because of what Jesus did for me on the cross & I am so blessed to have found my personal Lord & Savior Jesus Christ. The first thing I want people to know about me is that I love Jesus & if you're my friend, you're going to hear so much about that. I want people to like me but if they don't, they don't you know ? I don't listen to secular music anymore, as lovely as Lil wayne might be, he's not Godly. It is a struggle because so many songs have great beats but they're not what I need spiritually. It's hard to find Godly movies to watch because so many movies have ungodly things in them. The first thing hollywood wants to show you is a sex scene & scripture teaches against it. I want you to understand that I will never be perfect though, I will always struggle with sin but I become more like Christ everyday. I can't date guys who aren't christians anymore, it just doesn't work. We don't have the same goals or values out of it. I get goosebumps when I hear a good sermon, & it makes me want to go shout him to the roof tops as crazy as that sounds. Coming to Christ was the best thing thats ever happened to me & I just wanted to share :)
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